What we seek is our true self. However, our true self is not an object, but that which knows or is aware of all objects. We are subtler than objects, so we are aware of objects, but objects are not aware of us. For example, you are aware of your body but your body is not aware of you. If you changed your name, would your body ‘know’ this? No. But You would. What is this You that knows or is aware? It’s obviously not a thought, since thoughts are another ‘thing’ we are aware of.
Has not this awareness been present throughout your existence? What else can you say this about?? Without awareness, you couldn’t ‘know’ anything. So awareness is prior to knowledge, even prior to space and time, for without awareness what would ‘know of’ space and time?
Notice that you don’t have to ‘do anything’ to become aware. You are already aware. Simply stop and recognize what has always already been so: that the belief that ‘I’ am a body/mind is just that, a belief. What is aware of this belief? You! But not ‘you’ as an ever-changing self-image (another object), but as you truly are right here/now… ever-present, limitless, attributeless, causeless awareness.
And then, in a moment of clarity, it hits you… that which is always looking
out my eyes is not a “me.” “Me” is a thought. A thought is not what is seeing.
MICHAEL: Roger on noticing that your thoughts, like your heart pumping, are not under your control…
“I’ve never been controlling all of these things that I thought I was controlling. So we don’t have any question about the fact that we are not pumping the heart, that’s quite obvious to us. And we’re not cleansing the blood… all that’s happening automatically.
But there are certain functions that don’t appear to be as automatic as some other functions; thinking in particular. Thinking is a function that we are convinced is my doing. I am the thinker and they are my thoughts. And as a result of my thoughts they’re my actions. Thinking is as biological as the heart pumping.”
Notice… Awareness doesn’t change when thoughts change. Awareness doesn’t change when feelings change. Awareness doesn’t come or go or become more or less. Awareness remains unaffected by content just like the sky remains unaffected by the weather. Stay as you are and have always been since before the body took its first breath.
If we want wholeness, we will not find it in a fragment. What’s a fragment? A thought is a fragment. A feeling is a fragment. The story of “me” is a fragment. Any movement can only ever take you to a fragment because you are already wholeness itself. It’s our ignorance/conditioning that keeps us from truly seeing this and so it’s our ignorance/conditioning that must be seen through. This is what Satsang is for.
The light of the Self is always available but is not experienced when our attention is on the illusory ego Michael Jeffreys
My belief that life should be/look/feel a certain way in this moment in order for me to be happy is the root of my suffering. -Michael Jeffreys
It’s one thing to notice that the “outside” world can’t tell you what you are, but it’s another to notice that your own mind can’t either. Why? Where did your mind get everything it knows from? That’s right, the outside world.
Last Wednesday night at the West LA Satsang, I said, “Right here now, look around you. Whatever is presently happening, all of it… the room, the walls, the bodies sitting in chairs, the air, the light, the sounds, etc. is LIFE happening. And there is only one LIFE, however it is appearing.”
At this point I reached behind me and pulled out from behind my desk a box of LIFE cereal to which I had glued on, in black letters, the word: ‘MY.’ I then tossed it in the middle of the circle and continued, “This being the case, the idea that there is this separate thing called, ‘My Life’ is a complete illusion and the cause of my suffering. It’s an add-on, an overlay, a redundancy that has nothing to do with reality, but only exists in my mind as an idea. And it’s this project of trying to manage, protect and grow this imaginary, separate ‘My Life’ that is the source of all my problems.
Life is all there is and all that is ever happening… and there are not two LIFE’s… as Eckhart Tolle said, ‘You don’t have a life, you are life‘.”
It’s the direct realization of this that makes all the difference.
MICHAEL: To sit quietly and observe one’s mind for an extended period is often uncomfortable. Why? Because when we are engaged in non-stop doing throughout our day, we are not consciously aware of just how noisy/busy our mind is, bouncing from thought, to thought, to thought like a “drunken monkey stung by bees.”
Meditation gives you a chance to notice this. While some report they don‘t like meditation because it’s “too hard,” the point is that it’s not the meditation that’s causing the mind to jump around, but rather it’s already jumping around all the time, you’re just finally becoming aware of it!
What to do? Just observe it. Don’t try to stop your thoughts or change them. Simply observe them. Why? To see they are not you. This is the point. And the more you see they are not you, the less reactive you will become as they lose their hold over you and the more relaxed and peaceful you become. It can also be helpful to repeat to yourself throughout the day:
“I am not my thoughts… I am the witness of them.”