Awakening: The End of Fighting with Yourself. New MJ Awakening Blog
December 24, 2019

fighting yourself

AWAKENING: THE END OF FIGHTING WITH YOURSELF

The problem with identifying with/as your ego is that it brings with it an intolerable sense of division. There’s “me” and “the World.” And with this sense of separation comes fear. “What’s going to become of me?” “How come my life isn’t going the way I want it to go?” “What will happen to me after I die?” etc.

So naturally the egoic identity sets about trying to get rid of/eliminate this elusive sense of anxiety, dread and fear. Drugs, money, sex, power, fame, alcohol, eating, and numerous other addictions/distractions keep our mind occupied so as not to have to deal with this nagging sense that “something is off.”

Yet, as much as we try to ignore this little voice within, it won’t go away. This often leads to confusion/depression in the seeker as they can’t really put their finger on why they are so unhappy deep down inside.They just know they are despite trying to present a happy and socially acceptable face to the world.

Awakening is the realization that there’s no solution for the ego’s plight. That as long as you believe yourself to be separate from the Totality, you’re going to suffer. Thus, the only thing that actually works is to see the Absolute Truth. Not your mind’s relative version of the truth, but the actuality of Reality: You’ve never actually been this separate person you’ve imagined yourself to be.

That in fact Consciousness is one unified Whole which doesn’t leave anything out. In other words, everything’s the Tao because there’s only the Tao.

It’s the mind that attempts to break the Tao into parts and label them, i.e., “this is good, this bad” “this is pretty, this is ugly” “this is me, this is not me” etc.That’s it, that’s the mind’s one magic trick. Appearing to create duality out of nonduality. And without this sense of separation, there would be no dream. However, at a certain point Consciousness wants to come out of the dream and wake itself up.

The key is earnestness. Not giving up. You must have a burning desire in your heart for liberation, “As much as you want your next breath” as goes the story about the zen master holding the seeker’s head underwater until he was about to pass out. In other words, a 9 on a scale from 1-10 isn’t good enough. Liberation must be a white hot 10 otherwise, in my experience, whatever else your mind believes is more important will always take precedence.

Again, it’s ALL the Tao leaves nothing out. Nothing. Every thought, every sensation, every breath, every word, every movement is IT.

One of the things that strikes me about awakening is how obvious it is after you see it. Kind of like learning to ride a bicycle or swim as a small child. At first it seems incredibly difficult and frustrating, finding the balance point on the bike or keeping yourself from drowning in the water. But eventually you get the hang of it and once you do, you forget all about how hard it was and simply get on the bike and go or jump in the water and swim. No thought required!

With awakening, at first letting go of all of our concepts and beliefs about “the way things are or should be” seems incredibly difficult. But if you hang in there, and don’t give up, eventually you will see that you’ve only ever been fighting with Yourself.

Michael Jeffreys

Become totally empty… -Tao Te Ching. New MJ Awakening Blog
December 15, 2019

tao te ching

Become totally empty

Quiet the restlessness of the mind

Only then will you witness everything unfolding from
emptiness

See all things flourish and dance in endless variation

And once again merge back into perfect emptiness –

Their true repose

Their true nature Emerging

Flourishing, dissolving back again

This is the eternal process of return

To know this process brings enlightenment

To miss this process brings disaster

Be still

Stillness reveals the secret of eternity.

 

-Tao Te Ching

What does, “Not my will, but Thy will be done.” mean? New MJ Awakening Blog
December 9, 2019

ocean sunset thy will

Q: What does, “Not my will, but Thy will be done.” mean?

MICHAEL: It means being able to discriminate between what my ego wants/demands/desires and what is actually, presently happening/unfolding, however it appears. The former is my will, the latter Thy will.

It’s resting as the Whole Ocean, rather than identifying as the wave with an agenda. It’s going with the flow of Life, of what is, rather than trying to tell Life how the moment should be. It’s a joyous surrendering to what is. It’s peace and rest regardless of circumstances.

 

 

 

Underneath the Illusion. New MJ Awakening Blog
December 1, 2019

underneath the illusion

UNDERNEATH THE ILLUSION

Does the “I” actually make anything happen or is it itself another happening, just like your heart beating, your lungs breathing, or your hair growing?

Is not the entire moment simply one happening, followed by another and another and… all happening by itself?

What happens when I let go of my illusory control?

Is there peace and rest underneath it?

Michael Jeffreys

Just THIS: Both ordinary and Holy. New MJ Awakening Blog
November 25, 2019

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JUST THIS: BOTH ORDINARY & HOLY

There’s only what’s here/now in your direct experience. It’s the sense that there must be more than ‘just this’ that the mind throws up that keeps one seeking.

But no, there’s only ever just this, just whatever is happening, completely ordinary and divinely holy. Why? Because there’s nothing else.

No past, no future. Only ever this moment, however it’s appearing. Nothing to hold to. Nothing to let go of.

Michael Jeffreys

When we identify with/as ANYTHING we suffer. New MJ Awakening Blog
November 23, 2019

being

BEING, You, has no identity.

Thus when we identify with/as ANYTHING we suffer. We are imagining we are something we are not.

Michael Jeffreys

 

p.s. FROM MIND TO HEART: RECONNECTING WITH OUR INNER-BEINGNESS

“What is always True?” -MJ

One-on-one 30 min. private session with Michael via Skype or phone by donation. You can email me at: mjeffreys1@roadrunner.com if interested.

“We make time for what is most important to us.” 

We are addicted to COMPLAINING. New MJ Awakening Blog
November 19, 2019

complainer in the head

WE ARE ADDICTED TO COMPLAINING

As a species we are addicted to complaining. Have you noticed this?
Unlike animals, complaining seems so natural to human beings that we continually engage in it without much thought.

We learned to complain when we were young children and haven’t stopped since. We picked up the habit from our parents who in turn picked it up from their parents. And we are passing it on to our children who will then pass it on to their children. Society is built on complaining… practically everyone does it pretty much nonstop.

This doesn’t mean you can’t ask the cashier at Ralph’s to remove the extra item he inadvertently charged you for. It just means you have no interest in complaining about it to him or yourself. You simply ask for what what you want, sans complaining. For many, they don’t know how to ask for what they want without complaining, as if you can’t do the one without the other.

Complaining is so ingrained in us, so part of the apparent human condition, that to not be able to complain almost feels wrong. Complaining has become our identity. Who would I be without my complaints?

And yet it’s this compulsive need to complain that keeps us stuck in a perpetually unfulfilled life. How can we love life if we are constantly complaining about it? The answer is we can’t. We can’t be truly free until we are free from complaining… about anything.

What would it be like to go one day without complaining inwardly or outwardly about anything? What would it be like to go one hour without complaining inwardly or outwardly about anything? What would it be like to go one minute without complaining inwardly or outwardly about anything? What would it be like to live a complaint free life? Heaven on Earth.

Michael Jeffreys

The “me” is noise and noise will never find… New MJ Awakening Blog
July 12, 2019

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The “me” is noise and noise will never find Silence.

-Michael Jeffreys

The story is always old. The Silence is always brand new.

-Jeff Foster

Noticing how THOUGHTS are forever trying to “fix” the Moment. New MJ Awakening Blog
July 9, 2019

autumn-leaves

My thoughts claim (and I believe them) that this moment is not enough.

That it is insufficient simply as it is.

And so I set about trying to “fix” the moment, over and over and over, endlessly, ceaselessly.

And suddenly, 50 years have gone by.

Exhausted, I give up.

And lo and behold, a great discovery is made.

That it’s in the total and unconditional surrendering to the freshness of this spontaneous moment that real magic happens…

And the wind blowing across my face is more than enough.

Michael Jeffreys

THE 5 HINDRANCES. New MJ Awakening Blog
June 13, 2019

5 hindrances

THE 5 HINDRANCES

In the Buddhist tradition, the five hindrances are identified as mental factors that hinder progress in meditation and in our daily lives. These factors are identified specifically as obstacles to the jhānas (stages of concentration) within meditation practice. Within the Mahayana tradition, the five hindrances are identified as obstacles to (tranquility) meditation.

The five hindrances are:

1. Sensory desire (kāmacchanda): the particular type of wanting that seeks for happiness through the five senses of sight, sound, smell, taste and physical feeling.
2. Ill-will (vyāpāda; also spelled byāpāda): all kinds of thought related to wanting to reject; feelings of hostility, resentment, hatred and bitterness.
3. Sloth-and-torpor (thīna-middha): heaviness of body and dullness of mind which drag one down into disabling inertia and thick depression.
4. Restlessness-and-worry (uddhacca-kukkucca): the inability to calm the mind.
5. Doubt (vicikicchā): lack of conviction or trust.

-Wikipedia

MICHAEL: In other words, because I am feeling tired and worn out, I am agitated. Because I feel agitated I seek relief via pleasurable stimulation and avoiding unpleasant stimulation. Therefore, I cannot fully trust anything since a pleasant experience can turn unpleasant at the drop of a hat, and so doubt is my constant companion.

Since doubt and uncertainty are exhausting to lug around 24/7, I naturally feel tired and worn out, and the Samsaric cycle repeats over and over and over.

So what’s the solution? See it for what it is. Stop believing your mind and just watch it. See what it’s up to. Start to notice its patterns rather than just robotically reacting to them again and again and again. Remember, the moment you stop observing the mind you fall under it’s spell and believe you are the mind. When this happens simply notice this and continue noticing without skipping a beat. But the catch is you actually have to do it.

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