The fuel for seeking is believing the mind’s story that something is presently lacking, or deficient, or wrong, or should be different, or not as good as it could/should be. And the mind claims to know this as a fact with a perfectly straight face!?? Please honey child!
The reason seeking doesn’t work is because what you ALREADY ARE is without limits. Wholeness is your nature and so no word, no particular, no separation, no activity, no action, no ANYTHING has any ability whatsoever to affect, change, alter or modify Your impersonal inherent-Wholeness because it’s not in time.