Archive for April, 2015
“Regarding self-improvement…” new MJ Awakening Pic Quote
April 17, 2015
“Oh, I see. Thought and the space of awareness co-exist together!” new MJ Awakening Blog
April 13, 2015
Last night my girlfriend and I were meditating together and out of nowhere she says, “Oh, I see. Thought and the space of awareness co-exist together!” And when I looked at her, suddenly she looked about 10 years younger and completely relaxed and at peace. Like an enormous invisible weight had been lifted off her shoulders.
Apparently she had been going back and forth between the space of awareness and its contents, and wasn’t sure how to reconcile the two (meaning how both could exist simultaneously, as she would either be caught up in thoughts or totally resting as awareness, but couldn’t seem to have thoughts AND stay in that space of total openness, if you know what I mean). In that “ah-ha” moment she suddenly realized that they are not actually two, nor are they separate. That they co-exist!
Later as I was walking her to her car, I pointed up at the sky which was filled with white clouds, and said, “Honey, look at the sky… see how it co-exists with the clouds. In fact it doesn’t matter whether it’s raining, or snowing or 100 degrees out… the sky remains un-disturbed by its contents… just like the space of awareness.“
COMMENT: This was a great insight but it leaves me a bit confused Michael.. I am either in thought or in awareness and Presence.. I can’t understand them overlapping.. What am I missing?
MICHAEL: “You” are neither IN thought or awareness simply because there is no “you.” Thoughts appear in awareness, for no one. It turns out there doesn’t have to be someone there and in fact there ISN’T anyone there!! As a baby, there was no “you” there to differentiate between self and thought, self and other, etc. No “I” to have a problem with any thought! They just came and went on there own…
I think this is what my girlfriend saw. She thought she had to be one or the other (sort of like you said: “I am either in thought or in awareness and Presence”), but really thoughts (clouds) simply come and go within the ever present space (sky) of awareness…
“I want what you have.” new MJ Awakening Blog
April 4, 2015
At last weds. night’s deconstruction class at my place in west LA, someone said, “I want what you have.” However, she had it backwards. It’s not that I have something she doesn’t, she seemly has something I don’t: a SELF. I look directly here, now, in my present experience, and I find no SELF. Everything else is the same. Thoughts come, thoughts go; feelings come, feelings go. But for whom? I cannot find an owner.
And yet, somehow, seeing this clearly has made all the difference! It’s as if the believing that you are separate self is so heavy, so riddled with never ending discontent, that when it falls away you literally feel lighter, happier and freer.